It's been awhile since I last blogged. Have been feeling rather down lately. I don't know why. I feel like screaming, venting out all my anger at something. But, I can't express it. Sigh.. My emotions are fucked up. I'm fucked up too. Well.. That's me. Rather hyper, excited, happy, jovial etc in the outside. But yet, I'm so fucked up in the inside. I need to have my own space. I want to just walk walk walk and walk. I want to run run run and run. Maybe pumping some iron would help me loosen up a lil.

Hey everyoneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. HAHAHAHAH ! I've not been posting for the past..... Few months ? Yeahhhh :/ I'm too lazy to post luh. HAHAHAHA. I don't know what to post about right now. Hahahahhaha. GG (Y)

Mood swing, mood swing, mood swing. Sighhhhhhhhh. Holiday was great, due to having band practices three times a week :D And being able to meet up with super awesome band mates :D Ah well, I'm...... I don't know. Hah. Pathetic.

Woahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~ I've not been updating my blog, because, I'm just lazy to do so ! Sheesh. What a lazy bum I am -.- HAHAHAHAHA. Oh well, I don't know. LOL !

What a day ! Had both concert and jazz band practices and was such a long and tiring day today. But still, I enjoyed the day much ! :D I apologise for not updating my blog for these few weeks. Lazy luhh~ LOL.

The best moments in life, as a student of Ping Yi Secondary School was that of being a member of the most awesome marching band I've known and forever will be, Ping Yi Marching Band. I came in, in late November 2007 as a volunteer recruit. I was from NPCC but back then, I saw myself only as a band member, nothing else. I knew nothing about music. Marching, yes. I've been there and done that. But, I didn't know how to march and play music/my instrument at the same time, much less, playing any instrument. Before I came into band, I was exposed to how band was like. But, thanks to Ng Zhao Xun, he showed me videos of PYMB's SYF Outdoor '06 and Band Fiesta at Botanice Gardens. At that moment of time, I knew that, PYMB would change my last two years studying in Ping Yi into a much better and awesome way. And yes, PYMB did change my last two years in Ping Yi. As I attended the first practice, I was assigned into the Trombone section. Yes, I play the Trombone. The most unique instrument of all ochestra/band instruments. And the first person whom taught me how to play it, how to get the proper embrochure, how to get the proper sound, etc. Was none other than Carmel Joan Phillips. Yes, she did. She didn't give up teaching me and the other volunteer recruits in my section. She peservered on, and thanks to her 'never give up' attitude, I ended up playing the Trombone for PYMB. Several hours, days, weeks and months spent together with the members of PYMB. We've gone through thick and thin. To prep ourselves up for SYF Outdoor '08. This was my first ever and last SYF Outdoor competiton with PYMB. Although it's tiring and vigorous for some, I didn't give up. As what PYMB's Motto claims of the band, 'Conquer the Mind, Achieve the Dream'. That, somehow or rather, kept me going. To tell you the truth, I didn't even think that it was tiring. Marching and playing our instruments under the hot blazing sun. It wasn't. Seriously. Several months and band camps passed, it was already the day. The day where we, PYMB will show to the people out there, what we have in store for them. Central Judging for Display Band SYF '08.. We've obtained, a Silver. Yes, a Silver. All that blood, sweat and tears didn't really got wasted afterall. And yes, right now. It's just left with ONE DAY ! ONE DAY MORE ! Come on, PYMB. I know you can do it, because we believe in you. Don't keep thinking whether will you get that medal you want, don't think. Go and get it ! It is time. This is our moment. The 8 minutes of us, PYMB displaying our potential and getting that GOLD WITH HONORS ! YES !

Life isn't that interesting for me, really. I don't know what to do. I sleep late and 10 hours later, I'll wake up. Shower, lunch and yeah.. The rest of my day goes on, just doing.. NOTHING ! Sheesh.

Oh nooooooooooooo ! I've not been updating my blog. OMG. I'm so sorry my dear readers, well, if there were even any to begin with. HAHAHAHA. Central Judging of Display Bands SYF Outdoor 2010 is around the corner !

Woke up early in the morning. 6 am. I managed to get 3.5 hours of sleep only. I don't know I couldn't get to sleep. I was dead tired last night but I still couldn't get to sleep. Had to report to AMK ITE by 8 am. For registration. Completed everything by an hour or so. Well, the day was spent great. Haha. For the other half of my day, spent it with STC(Singapore Trombone Choir). They're great company. Yes, they are :D Haha. Well, I'm so looking forward to my next practice with them. Have to improve. Malik, improve. You HAVE TO ! HAHAHAHA !

Woke up at 7.30 am as I have plans with Asyraf. Met at the gym at Tampines. I was first to reach there, followed by Winston and then, Asyraf. Only the three of us. Hah. Early in the morning and, the gym is half packed. Hahaha. Both of them didn't have any mood to use the gym facilities any further, so we left for brunch ? Haha. Ate at 'Food Culture', ordered some japanese cuisine. Definitely, not my kind of food ? Didn't finish it though. Usually, I'll finish my food in a split second. HAHAHAHA ! I don't know. Maybe I've to adapt to some changes. Hahahah. Then we went off to Bedok Interchange, MacDonald's to discuss some matters. And at about 1.30 pm, off we went to school, for band practice. After practice, well, as usual. Had dinner at 'Tropical'. Ahhh~ My favourite place. Haha. And yes, I cleared the finger food. Spent $17 ON FOOD, TODAY ! WAHHHHHHHHH~ Kill me ! Anyway, here's some lyric. It's great stuff. Seriously.






Yeah I know it hurts, Yeah I know you're scared walking down the road that leads to who knows where. Don't you hang your
head don't you give up yet when courage... starts to disappear I will be right here.

When your world breaks down and the voices tell you turn around. When your dreams give out I will carry you, carry you.
When the stars go blind and the darkness starts to flood your eyes. When you're falling behind, I will carry you.

Everybody cries, Everybody bleeds, No one ever said that lifes an easy thing. Thats the beauty of it, when you lose your
way, close your eyes and go to sleep and wake up to another day.

You should know now that you're not alone. Take my heart and we will find, you will find, your way home.

When your dreams give out I will carry you, carry you. When the stars go blind and the darkness starts to flood your eyes.
When you're falling behind, I will carry you, carry you, I will carry you, carry you, I will carry you, carry you, I will
carry you.

Finally !!! I've gotten my own personal trombone ! :D :D :D Happyyyyy~ Purchased a second hand first. A Manchester Brass Series Bb/F Trombone. Well, not only did I purchase that, I also got myself a tuning fork. HAHAHA ! Physics~ Hmmm.. Most probably, 10 years down the road or after I'm done with studies and NS, I'll most probably upgrade to a much better one. Edwards, maybe ? :D

Couldn't get to sleep.. Why ? Because I kept thinking of you lately. I've been dreaming visions of you. It has been two weeks now. Hah. What is becoming of me now ? Pathetic -.- Why am I so emooooo~ ? LOL. Sigh.. My second NS Medical Checkup this Thursday. Oh, and yes. I just had a haircut this afternoon (:

I've finally gotten into a course and campus. Aerospace Machine Technology/Medical Manufacturing Technology at AMK campus. Haha. The course sounds abit too... Chim, don't you think ? Hahahaha.

Went to the gym at Tampines with Asyraf. The rest, didn't reply to his message I suppose or they're just busy with stuffs.. Yeah. All weak and can't get ourselves up. Hahaha. Next week, swimming at.. Jurong ? Hmmmm..

Spent a whole evening at Diana's Mum's place. Was great. Having that company. Well, they didn't talk to me that much, rather, they talked amongst themselves ? Hahaha. Hope I'll be slacking with them ? Hahahaha.

I'm practially dying right now.. Hahaha.

Today, went for a swim at Tampines Swimming Complex with the same co. as yesterday but Ming Kwang(the one whom suggested swimming today) didn't turn up, due to some problems at home(what he told me). So, only Asyraf and Bryan turned up. Well, we had some amount of fun still :D Woohooo ! Hahahaha. Swam till 6.30 pm and headed to KFC for our dinner. Ahh~ What a meal I had. Shrooms burger and large Pepsi and mashed potato ! :D

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But before meeting them, I went to City Hall. To find Guan Guan at his workplace. Gave him $50. Money fly~ T.T But I believe, this would be a good investment :D $20 for the Yamaha 51 small shank mouthpiece and $30 for my Arban book. Woohooo~

Yesterday, went to the gym with Asyraf, Bryan and Ming Kwang, at Tampines. My first time there though. Haha. Did a good workout although it was an hour of workout. I came late, that explains the short workout. Hah. After that, went to have dinner at BBQ Chicken. First time there too ? HAHAHA. Oh my.. I seriously have no life. Hah.

A picture is worth
A thousand words
But a picture of you
Is worth much more

I couldn’t describe, such lovely eyes
As blue as water, reflecting the skies
I couldn’t describe, such a smile
That’s whiter than snow, by a mile
I couldn’t describe, your wavy hair
It flows like waves on a teddy bear
I couldn’t describe a girl like you
No words could define what is so true

No one thinks this
Will last that long
But my love for you will
Prove them wrong

I think of you
Almost every day
But when I see you
I’m lost for words to say

You hold my hand
Please don’t let go
You smile at me and
Right then I know

That you love me back…

Just mere thoughts that I've been having all these while.. Sigh.

Yesterday, attended Anglican High's concert. Gave AudioImage practice a miss. Well, I didn't regretted missing practice. But still, the next practice would be after CNY. Sigh. What am I to do without AudioImage practice ? The concert was... BOOMZ !! HAHA. It was superb. Went alone, well.. That's me, I suppose ? Sigh.

Well, for today.. It sucks. Yes, IT SUCKS !

Is there any interesting happenings for me to post about ? I think there's none ? Life sucks when you have nothing to do, at all. Just waking up and then, realising that you have no whatsoever plans for the remaining hours of the day.

Happy Birthday to myself.. Yesterday was my birthday. Yeah. Sigh. Today AudioImage Wind Ensemble's performance ! :D Singaporean Wind Music Showcase. Full house. That's a good thing but then again, we want more audience ! :D HAHAHA. I'm beat right now.. Sigh. Although I'm 18, it sucks. Nothing much happened yesterday. Had TJ Open House performance. It was great performing with them. LOL. Not even a single soul gave me a present D: And I'm shocked to see that my twin got a present from his friends o.o Perhaps, I'm a loner. I've always been alone. HAHAHA. Can't be helped anyway. Sigh. Thanks TJCSB :D It's been great playing music with all of you. HAH ! I had my first ever birthday cake, yesterday. Pathetic right ? To have the first ever birthday cake when you only turn 18. Pffft -.- I'm dead tired.


Edited; I did receive a birthday present yesterday. And it was a merit bursary ! :D

As I bought today's copy for 'The New Paper', one article really pissed me off and it even made me look down on Singaporeans ! It's so frustrating to know that a girl, was groped openly by men at the Sentosa Siloso Beach Countdown Party '09. And another thing which made me extremely disgusted by Singaporeans is that, they'd rather flash out their handphones and cameras, taking pictures and recording down the horrifying act of some men, groping a helpless girl, who seem to be in a very small bikini wear. It may seem that the girl is asking for it but, why won't fellow Singaporeans come to aid her, being groped helplessly by men ? Pffft. And they even DARE to record it down and take pictures of it. What the hell is wrong with these people ?! How can Singaporean women be safe in public places/parties when this kind of thing could happen during an overly crowded Countdown Party ? It's utterly shameful ! I'm ashamed of Singaporeans ! Why didn't they help that poor girl ? Why just stand there, enjoy the incident and even take photos and have it videoed ?